Saturday, January 7, 2012

RIP Sweet Bubba!! We love you and will miss you!

     Today was a very sad and difficult day.  We had to put down our sweet Cocker Spaniel, Bubba.  It actually started a few months back when he started to get a bad cough.  He sounded like he was choking on something.  I took him in to see the vet and he said it was an allergy cough and gave him a shot and some meds.  We went home and at first it got a little better, but when the meds ran out it started again.  So back to the vet we went.  The vet again decided it was just a bad cough and did the shot and meds again.  The same thing happened, better and then worse again.  So again we went back to the vet, but this time he had started to develop some growths on his side.  The vet gave a shot, meds, and said he really is too old to worry about the growths.  He just stated that we can just hope they don't burst. 

     Well, he again did better with the cough and seemed to be doing OK, but then last weekend we noticed some blood on the ground where he likes to lay.  Wondering what it was from I began to check him over and noticed that one of the growths did in fact burst.  So on Monday I took him to the vet again.  The vet said he was really hoping that would not happen, but now that it has he will need surgery and we will have to hope he makes it.  I asked what the cost is and the chances.  He said it would be $150 for the surgery and he really want not sure he would make it through the surgery due to his age.  And we have a choice to chance the surgery or put him to sleep.  The vet said to think about what I want to do and let him know.

   
     Now Bubba is 14 1/2 years old.  I have had him for many, many years.  I had to think really hard about this decision.  It is not an easy one to make.  But in the end I had to really think about Bubba and how he feels, what is his quality of life?  The truth is that Bubba is old!  Plus he is mostly deaf and partially blind.  He also has some arthritis and often falls when just walking across the room.  I know that even though he would fight with my other dog that he has been lonely since she has been gone.  So I had to make the really hard decision to put him to sleep.  This has been even harder as Jayden LOVES Bubba so much.  I knew from the appointment last Monday that this was going to have to be done.  But with a full work schedule I have not been able to take him.  I have done my best to help him feel comfortable and loved. 

     Last night we decided to tell Jayden.  I reminded Jayden about all the visits Bubba had gone to the vet lately.  Jayden has gone to like 3 of them, including the one the vet said he needs surgery or to be put down.  Jayden didn't understand what they all meant, but he knew Bubba was sick.  Anyway, I reminded him and he said yes.  I told him that his grandma was going to come over the next day (today) and help me take him to the doctor again.  (I just can't do it myself) And when he goes to the doctor they will give him some medicine that will help him feel better and sleep.  I said and then he won't be coming home with me so he won't be back.  Jayden immediately said, "but I want him to come back mommy, I love Bubba."  I told him I know you do and I love Bubba too, but he is sick and it hurts him.  The medicine will help him feel better and he will go to Heaven and watch us.  I told him that Bubba will always be in our hearts, but we won't be able to see him anymore.  Jayden was sad and hugged me.  He told me don't take him mommy.  And I said I have to. 

     So then today when my mom got here Jayden looked at me and said are you going to take Bubba to the doctor now.  I told him yes and that he needed to say goodbye.  I let Jayden give him the last of his doggy treats, Jayden always likes to give Bubba his treats.  So Jayden gave him his treats and a last hug.  We took the picture at the top of him with Bubba right before I left.  It was really hard, but had to be done.  Due to the high cost of the vet doing it ($175), I had to take him to the Humane Society where they only charge $60.  I went in and filled out the paperwork.  There were lots of people there.  It was hard, but I tried to stay strong.  I waited for my turn and the man was very nice.  He put in the information and asked me a little about what was happening with him.  He made a quick phone call and then walked out to the car where my mom was waiting with Bubba.  I was able to give him a last hug and kiss and tell him goodbye.  The man wrapped Bubba


     Bubba will always be in my heart and I will miss him as our whole family will.  But in the end it is best for him to no longer suffer.  Rest In Peace Sweet Bubba Boy the IV (the name on his papers). 


11 comments:

  1. Oh I am so sorry, this is such a hard thing to go through. We had to do it a few years ago, but our kids were older so in that aspect, not as hard. You did the right thing, as hard as it is to do. Again, I am so sorry. *hugs*

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  2. My heart is with you! I had to say goodbye to my dog of 10 years not so very long ago and it was unbelievable hard. I too know Bubba is now healthy and happy. Maybe he has met my Fudge and they are having a wonderful time watching over us. Hugs!

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  3. I'm so sorry! It is so hard to make these kinds of decisions, especially when children are involved. (((HUGS)))

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  4. I'm so sorry for your loss- losing a pet is honestly one of life's hardest obstacles. Big hugs to you & your family. <3

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  5. So sorry I know what it feels like I had lost our poodle last year and he was 20 years old.I still miss him

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  6. This made me cry! Lost my dog in August and he was only 3, but losing a beloved family pet is hard no matter their age. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    ~Mimi

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  7. My boyfriends childhood dog of about 16 years died last february and it still hits us from time to time. It's so hard to lose a pet especially after they've been through so much with you.

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  8. My condolences. I know how hard it is to have to make that decision having made it with my first Springer Spaniel. I couldn't make it through your story without crying as it's only been about six weeks since my second Springer suddenly and unexpectedly died. I think that was even harder... having it be totally out of the blue with o chance to say goodbye. My sympathy goes out to you and your family.

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  9. I'm soo sorry! I couldn't imagine having to tell one of my little ones that a beloved pet wasn't coming back home, I'm sure that was hard....my friend went through a similar situation her dog had grown a growth on top of her paw and she started to naw at it it, they couldn't get her to stop it was awful! She had to make the tough decision to put her down, my heart broke for her.....rip bubba

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  10. Losing a pet is such a devastating event. We lost our beloved dog not too long ago and we are just getting to the point of considering a new family member. So sorry for your loss. My hope is you celebrate your life together and find joy in your lives again soon. Peace

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  11. I am so sorry. We just had to do the same with our 5 year old Golden last Saturday. She had lung cancer at a very young age. Even though my daughter is 14 months she really has had a hard time with it. She had know Lucy all of her life and is always looking to see where she is. I hope someday she can look back at all the wonderful pictures I have of them growing up together.

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